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savagehart
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Country: United States
State: Michigan
Metro: Detroit
Birthday: 5/9/1984
Gender: Female
Interests: Art, reptiles, growing plants, tv, anime, CSI, superheroes (mostly marvel), music, Tattoos, Tattooing, video games, vegging, friends...ummm...yeahhh...
Expertise: iguanas, and reptiles in general, uh...art-ish type stuff...and just being downright nerdy...
Industry: Art
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AIM:  savagehart37
Member Since:
2/19/2005
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| Havent blogged in about a million years. dont really have much to say...havent had the urge to share my problems...too lazy...ah well...
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| Well. first journal in a long time...
all my posts are brought on by bad happenstances...hmmm.....
well, life is kinda goin crazy...lots of things are changing...
the new boy is working out pretty good...
but on the other hand...
the coffee shop i work at is driving me up the wall. the manager doesnt
know what rules she wants to enforce and when...so it ends up all willy
nilly with some people getting getting in trouble and others never
getting in trouble. its frustrating to be written up for being late,
but having everyone else just gets a,
"oh, where were you?"
"car trouble"
"oh...ok"
but that's changed...i'm transfering to another store...one inside the mall across the street from my old store
not looking forward to working in a mall near christmas time...oy...
but i am looking forward to KNOWING what i'm going to get in trouble for and what i'm not.
i'm looking forward to the change...a new atmosphere...
but at the same time, with all the change that has been going on in my
life, it was nice to have that one constant. the one thing that was
staying the same...
oh well...
But the HUGE crappy thing that's happening in my life lately is the loss of my other job.......
I AM NO LONGER A TATTOO ARTIST
...well at least not one that's currently working at a shop...
i was let go because there was just no work for me...
...EFF michigans economy...
...EFF jennifer granholm...
so i either have to find a new shop to work at...put it on hold for now...or just descide to drop it indefinately.....
boxing up all of my supplies sucked...
on top of that, my best friend has moved to missouri...
and with the cutting off of the old life with the EX, i've lost some people...
now all i really have left are Eric's friends...
as much as i love Eric's friends, they're still not MY friends...i
havent known them for 10 years and know everything about them...i dont
feel like i can talk to them like my old friends...
no money for gifts this year...We arent buying anything for eachother...no money to...
trying to find money to get gifts for the family...
eric's hours keep getting cut at work...apparently the store isnt doing as well as they thought they would...
.............................OY VEY............................................
................................Life.................................
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| ok soooo.....
eric has a job! wootah for that. he's starting monday and i'm so relieved to have some extra income coming in soon...less stress on me :P
his friend of the court child support enforcement hearing is the 16th. but now that he has a job, we know the hearing will go well. because all he has to do now is tell them he has the job and set up some payment plan. so now we know they wont take away his drivers licence, his belongings, or take him to jail.
on the other hand...
both of us have been fighting off sickness for the last couple days. he got it a lot worse than i did. good thing too, cuz i couldnt afford to miss work. but i have felt quite crappy and it makes working 9 hours days suck a lot...
i didnt make anything at the tattoo shop lats week. ANYTHING...NOTHING...zip...zilch...so i had 25 bucks to my name for the last week.
so now eric's ex sent him an email chewing him out about seeing maddie, their daughter, and chewing ME out for "talking bad about her"!
number one) i dont know anyone who she knows...so i have no idea how she's hearing things i'm saying. she said she "still has friends in novi". is she having spies come to my starbucks and striking up conversations with me? creeping me out a little bit...
number two) i dont talk bad about her! the only thing i've ever said about her, good or bad, is exactly what i said in the last post i made. people at work would ask how eric is doing and i told them that he's having a hard time not seeing his daughter, and its because she wont let him see his daughter...
Exerpt from last post...
"eric hasnt been able to see his daughter in months. his EX wont
let ANYONE be around their daughter except his friend Danny. she took
both the cars (so eric doesnt have a car). danny is the only one who
can drive him to pick up Maddie and Danny's mom is apparently really
sick so he cant leave his mom alone. so he has no way ibn hell to see
his daughter.......she wont even let her godmother bee around her.
she's whining about how he hasent seen his daughter, but she's made it
almost impossible for him to! sonova...."
...and that is not me gossiping about her. its me STATING FACTS. i'm not "talkin smack" about her or anything.
i want to know which one of her "friends in novi" is lying about me. because i have only ever stated the facts about the situation to my close friends at work who are concerned about eric.
i dont know that woman! the only things i know about her are what eric has told me. and i know there are two sides to every story. i truthfully know almost nothing about her, so i cant say anything bad about her.
..........anyway...........
heres the great part. everyone who lives in michigan should know about the new TAXES grandholm had planned. the taxing of random things. services like janitorial, nails and makeup, and TATTOOING. TATTOOING...i am officially screwed.
exlain...
the shop has been so slow lately that i have been cut down to one day a week. being that i am the only one with a second job, john and tammy working exclusively at the shop, i'm the one who got cut. its like having my hours cut. i'm only working there one day a week.
"i have an idea! lets take a state where no one has jobs and no one has any money...AND CHARGE THEM MORE MONEY!"
so now that there are going to be taxes on tattoos, people are even less likely to come in and get one.
so now with these taxes...i will have to tax every tattoo i do. i will have to get a federal tax ID number and make myself a corporation. i have to stop using the credit card machine at the shop... cuz that would mean i was an employee...i am an independant comtractor...i rent shop space by giving john a percentage...lots more blah blah blah technical stuff...
to make a long story short...this tax thing would make life WAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYY more complicated.
the question is, do i really want to bother with all this for only one day a week? is it really worth it?
i guess i have to rethink my job situations.....
.....................just when i think things are starting to go well..................
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| ok...so short lazy update...
went to the primary care physicion and got my refferal...still havent had my second obgyn apt. partly out of lack of free time...and partly out of fear...if i never go then they can never tell me i have something REALLY wrong with me.....................right?
still no job for the man...tho michaels called back while i was on my way to work today... but since i had the phone all day, he's gotta call them back tomorrow...luckaly the guy will be in untill 5 tomorrow so he can call him them...hopefully he'll get a job before the 16th of oct. thats when his child support enforcement hearing is....dunno what exactly they're gonna do if he cant pay anything and doesnt have a job.....
ug...
got my tattoos finally.....
been working like a crazy person to afford our rent on just my income...
erics mom is out of the hospital and seems to be doing well......
on the other hand, apparently my grandma isnt doing so well....her liver isnt at its best......
eric hasnt been able to see his daughter in months. his EX wont let ANYONE be around their daughter except his friend Danny. she took both the cars (so eric doesnt have a car). danny is the only one who can drive him to pick up Maddie and Danny's mom is apparently really sick so he cant leave his mom alone. so he has no way ibn hell to see his daughter.......she wont even let her godmother bee around her. she's whining about how he hasent seen his daughter, but she's made it almost impossible for him to! sonova....
ug some more.........................
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| Ok... i apologise for all the bitching i've been doing lately...but i
really have nothing to talk about exept all the bad crap that's been
happening to me lately...
Updates:
well, it turns out
that in order to get a referral from my primary care physician for the
test at the OBGYN (see earlier post) i acctually had to make an
apointment for the PCP...which between friday morning and tuesday
morning (monday being labor day) was absolutely impossible. so i had to
cancel my appt. for tuesday morning. so i have to get an appt. with my
PCP, then reschedule with my OBGYN. and i just have SOOOOO much free
time to do that....(<- sarcasm)....
Nothing had come out of
the job hunt...khols hasnt called back still...but we picked up an app.
for michaels...at least he can get a job as a cashiere er something.
Erics
mom is in the hospital. she has a chronic bronchial thing and just bad
lungs in general. she got the flu and just overexerted herself in
general...she was working crazy hours at the vets and doing crazy
stuff...imagine a 90 Lb woman trying to stuff a 150 Lb dog's body into
a freezer...oy...
I had one of the worst days at work on sunday.
i went to Mcdonalds to get some cheap food and there was this douche
bag lady bitching out the people at mcdonalds for putting onions and
pickles on her burger (OMFG!!! NOT ONIONS AND PICKLES!!!) . she made me
son angry...and i was feeling excesivly ballsy so i descided to go up
to her and bitch her out...she just complained about "being up since 4
in the moring" and "waisting gas by having to come back to get her
sandwich right" (because if the gas was so important, you cant just
scrape the onions off and pull the pickles off yourself?) and i told
her, because youre the only one who ever gets up that early?! i do it
almost every day...and i'm sure i get payed a lot less for it... and i
hoped that she felt better about her self by belittleing others...and i
hoped her kids didnt turn out like her...suffice to say, i was so mad
when i drove home that i was shaking and crying....i ABHOR people who
think they're owed everything just becuase they're "them"...i hate
injustice and belittleing.....i really wouldve liked to deck this woman
in the face or key her car....if i didnt have to get back to work i
dont know what i wouldve done...
so then, after work, eric and i
got together with some friends. i left my phone in the car. so we get
back home at 1am...and i had missed a phone call...from erics dad.
apparently he wanted us to pick erics mom up from the hosital. now
erics dad had a heart thing a while ago...so he has a defibralater
built into his chest. too much excitement can set it off. which means
he cant drive. and with erics mom in the hospital, he's stuck all alone
in the house, with no one to pick her up from the hospital.
So
eric calls him back at 1am. he's still up, he'd been too antsy to
sleep. i just sat there as he talked to his dad...he gets off the phone
and says "ok, we're gonna go pick my mom up at 11:00am tomorrow"....i
just look at him blankly...then remind him that i have an appointment
to trade work with a lady that works at the tattoo shop. tomorrow. at
11:00am. i've been wanting to get these tattoos for a couple months
now...and i finally had free time (something i rarely have) to get
them! but i felt like a total douche saying "no, i dont want to pick
your sick mother up from the hospital, i want my tattoos!"
so i just sucked it up and said that i'd cancel with tammy.
so
i got up on monday. just layed in bed waiting for erics dad to call
about his mom...i called tammy and told her what was going on, and
asked if maybe we could try for later that day. she said it was all ok.
so we waited...and waited and waited...finally, at 1pm, we got so antsy
that we just drove over to his parents house, in oak park. apparently
they had changed her room and were doing more tests so she hadnt set up
the new phone number yet. so we had no way to get a hold of her.
2pm
rolls around.....3pm rolls around....i'm sitting there at his parents
house staring off into space. so, since his dad cant drive, we go pick
up some groceries for him... we come back with some milk and break and
margarine. and eric says, "why dont you just go down to the tattoo
shop, and i'l call you if anything comes up." so i say ok, he goes into
the house and i call tammy. no answer. her phones dead. i sigh and go
back inside.
(all the while i feel like an absolute whore
because i'm pouting about getting my tattoos, when his mom's in the
freakin hospital)
i sat there for a while...got bored...grabbed
the design i was gonna do on tammy from the car...polished it up a bit.
was bored some more...when finally, around 4/4:30ish, we fianlly get a
hold of his mom. she had come back from her tests. so we went up to the
hospital. we visited with her for a while. and tammy called back. she
apologised for her phone dying and said that she's be ready in a half
hour to do the tattoos. since we had learned that she was staying in
the hospital for a couple more days, we finished the visiting, said
we'd come again tomorrow, and left.
Eric then asked to be
dropped off at the apartment (its around 5ish now). he said he was too
antsy to sit at a tattoo shop fot that long. mind you, its totally out
of the way. its like a triangle; the tattoo shop, that apartment, and
the hospital. i had just finished carting him around all day and
worrying and sitting on one of my few days off. and now he wanted me to
waste gas and stress out my allready icky car, that was about to break
any moment (foreshadowing anyone?) and get these tattoos alone.
fine...whatever...
(by the way, if you've been counting, i
couldve kept my appointment with tammy, get my tattoos, do tammys
tattoo, and still had a plethera of time to visit erics mom, and get
his dad's groceries....without sitting there wasting my whole day)
and again...his mom's in the hospital...and i feel like an ass for even THINKING about my tattoos...
so i drop him off.
its
about 5:45pm now. i'm 2/3 of the way to the tattoo shop. when the
inevitable happens...what else could go wrong? FLAT TIRE! YAY! this is
probly the 4th flat tire i've had this year...2 within only the last
month. sweet. eric has no phone, so i cant call him and tell him. i'm
supposed to be gone for a while getting my tattoos anyway, so he wont
worry. so i call my mom, tell her, and them call AAA. they say they'll
be there between now and 6:57. i say ok...it must be 6:30ish, theyll be
here within a half hour....NO.....they'll be here within an
HOUR.....sweet...
so i make a few calls, try to pass the
time...call tammy and say, i'm gonna be late...but i REALLY wanted to
get those tattoos...so i didnt want to cancel...so i said i'd get the
tire changed and be over...
just when you think it cant get worse...
the
AAA guy gets there. luckily it only took him a half hour...not the full
hour. so he gets down and tries to change the tire. THE LUG NUTS WONT
COME OFF. the freakin lug nuts wont come off. my dad had taken the car
to get fixed and get a new tire. and apparently the guys who put on the
new tire put it on with a gun and tightned them way too much.
so he neede to tow me.
i call tammy and tell her that we'll have to rescedule.
and
after much rambling from my dad about how the guy shouldve had some
sort of bar thing for leverage and he couldve gotten them off with
that, and me saying, he's a freakin tow truck guy...i'm sure he knows
what he's doing...and after seeing him jump on top of the 4-way, i'm
pretty sure those things worent budging, my dad finally told me to tell
him to tow me to the UPS (since he works there) parking lot, which was
a couple miles away and we'll deal with it tomorrow (since is is labor
day after all...no one's open!!!)...no, wait, tow me straight to
discount tire so it'll be there and we can get there tomorrow...OY
VEY...
so he tows me, and drops me off...a couple minutes later my dad gets there. and drops me off at home.
i get inside. and erics just sitting there playing video games. great...i'm sure he's had a wonderful evening.
before all that crap happened we were gonna try to have a date night....so much for that...
i did some cooking to try to settle myself down...it helped a little...
.......Next day.......tuesday........
got
up at 9am. i had to call the OBGYN when they opened and tell them that
i had to cancel my appointment cuz i couldnt get the refferal. they
said it was fine. went back to sleep.
and i layed there till
my dad called me...at around 1pm...said "you know, it was kinda stupid
of us not to leave your keys with me...now i have to come pick you up
and have you wait with me" so i got ready and he came and picked me up.
we sat there for a couple hours...apparently they were really buisy...
luckaly, my dad had found a used tire elsewhere for 15 bucks. so i only
payed 25 bucks for them to put a new tire on.
got home around 4pm...flopped on the bed...layed there depressed.
i
cant remember which one of us it was who suggested it, but we ended up
desciding to have our date night on tuesday. so we got dressed, and
went to applebees. we had a nice night...good conversation...and went
home. we went home and i said "hey, lets put on a movie we done have to
pay attention to" (...hint, hint...) and nothing happened...he ended up
falling asleep and i stayed up amd chain smoked for an hour and stayed
up for another hour after that. didnt end up sleeping till about 4am.
everything i had to worry about flooded back to me; all the money woes,
lack of free time, doctor appointments, heath issues, emotional
issues.....
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